Moving on to the minor leagues

Just got back from my post op with RE. Got my stitches taken out from my lap surgery on the 17th. Everything is great, my tube isn't blocked anymore but he said their is still a slight chance that if the egg runs through that tube, it can get stuck.  He also repaired my endo so everything is a GO! So RE recommends we move forward with IUI. I'm very excited and scared at the same time. Excited because I think that's awesome that they'll be able to see what side I'm ovulating on and it really takes the guess work out of things and also because it's a higher percent of getting a BFP then good old fashion BDing. Not by much, but I'll take any extra percentage I can get. Next step is starting ayegestin once I'm at cd 35, clomid cd 3-7, HCG shot on cd 11 and then come back in for IUI the morning of the 12th. Then according to RE "watching my pregnancy like a hawk". I'm scared because who knows how many cycles of IUI it will take and I'm not employed right now. It's been nice not working the last 6 months but I think I should look for another job to help pay off these medical bills. My only dilemma is what to apply for. With all of these RE appts coming up I'll need something with flexibility. I was working at a bank prior but banks aren't flexible with schedules and they're 9-5 which is doc appt time frame. Before that I was assistant manager at a sports store..but that involved lifting heavy boxes and display mannequins and stress which is the last thing I'd want while pregnant and resulting in another miscarriage. Ugh, I just need to play the lotto!!  Hoping it doesn't take many cycles to get prego.  We're doing at most 5 IUI's then moving on to the major leagues, IVF! But we're praying it doesn't come to that.  Keep your fingers crossed!

On another note, I'm going to Barry and Jessi's for dinner because DH is out of town.  I'm also going to take more pictures of my pretty little niece and I'll post those tomorrow.  Can't wait for the day to take a billion pics of our own little one. :)

Photo Session with Miss Molly

Here are the pics I took yesterday of my niece Molly, her parents and her great grandma and grandpa Griswold.  She's very photogenic. :)

 I HAD TO PUT THIS PICTURE OF THEIR EARS. TOO FUNNY!!

no cake class for me

I had to miss my cake class tonight. I'm still sore from the surgery and am not in any shape to go sit through class and carry around all the supplies.  I emailed the instructor and I'll just have to practise on my own at home from the book and she'll try and catch me up at next weeks class.  I'll post pics this week when I attempt it. :) I think the #1 downfall to this surgery is the NAUSEA! It's definitely taken it's toll on me.  I had to stop my pain meds because it gave me really bad side effects of nausea and headaches.  At least while I'm off them I don't get the bad headaches. ha, just pain and less nausea.  Which I'll take over 8 hour headaches, that is the worst.  Ok, time for bed.  I'll post more pics this wkd of my niece Molly! I'm seeing her tomorrow along with Mikes grandparents and I'm so excited!! yay!! Goodnight!!

sucess for the Griswold girls.

I can't type much because I'm very nauseous this morning but the surgery was a success. :) I'll write more in a few days when I can. Also my sister in law had her baby.  Her name is Molly Allison.  lol, us Griswold girls went through a lot this week.

Here is my brand spankin' new niece Molly.  She looks just like DH's brother. She's absolutely perfect.

Uncle Mike and his new niece

 She's holding Mikes finger.

 New mommy and Molly

 Daddy looking his twin in her eyes. lol

 so sweet.

 Auntie Michelle and baby Molls.

 I could just eat those cheeks up!

My SIL's in labor!

Patiently awaiting the arrival of our beautiful niece Molly.  My SIL went into labor this morning and is still pushing.  I wish more than anything I could meet my niece tonight but I have to go to bed now to rest for my surgery in the morning.  I have to wake up at 3a.m and I'm not looking forward to that.  I will keep you guys posted on me and my niece! Goodnight. :)

Cake Attempts

Soo here is my cake I promised. lol. it looks so boring because I was running out of time in class smoothing my darn cake and waiting for it to crust before I can smooth it.  Then deciding how I want to decorate it and I couldn't come up with anything! I was probably staring at my cake for a good twenty minutes thinking "Uhhhhhhhhh....Ummmmmm..." talk about lack of creativity.  lol, next Friday is cupcakes, hopefully I bring my A game to class!

 This class I learned how to smooth a cake, die my icing using gel food coloring, make elongated circles so I made hearts, rosettes and zig zags using the star tip, how to level and torte the cake and how to pipe a barrier so your filling doesn't ooze out.. :) 

My attempt at a zig zag border. lol.

 White cake, raspberry filling, buttercream icing

Stay tuned for more cakes every week. :) I'm sure my waistline will hate me.

poor neglected blog.

I haven't really been in the mood to blog which is why there hasn't been an entry in over a month.  Last month was a very tough month for me emotionally.  Our 2 year mark of TTC was right around the corner (Jan) and it was the holidays and my birthday and it was just that much more depressing that we still didn't have our baby yet.  Before we started TTC I was someone who always planned out everything.  If I went on vacation I'd have a notebook with what outfit I was wearing on each day including my accessories, shoes and hair do! Let me tell you I have learned through TTC you can not plan everything.  Some things you just have no control over and that is very hard for me. Being the Polly planner that I was, when we started TTC I told everyone "It's perfect because I just turned 24 which is a good age & we'll have been married 5 years when they're born..perfect! done and done ;-)."  Low and behold I just turned 26 and this year we'll be married for 7.  It was just too much to handle last month.  I was an emotional roller coaster.  My poor husband didn't know which one of me he was going to get each morning.  The cheerful personality who sings silly songs in bed along with a wacky dance or the 'woe is me' wicked depressed personality where they didn't care about a single thing in life.  Sad to say most of December he got the depressed side of me.  He completely understood what I was going through but I'm sure it was hard for him to deal with a sad sack.  Oh did I mention his parents we're in town? lol. I was probably a horrible host because I was so down and out.  They were trying to plan activities and I just had the attitude of 'whatever you guys want to do, I'm down.'  I am much better this month.  Now that we're at the 2 year mark there's nothing to do but look forward.  Now if we get to 3 years that's another story! You might see me on the news jumping off a building. kidding!..bad joke I know.  I just had my pre op yesterday with the RE. Everything is set for surgery on Monday the 17th.  I'm getting a laparoscopy to unblock my tube.  I'm praying it's just a simple procedure and an easy fix and he doesn't find anything that would make IVF our only option.  He mentioned that's a possibility and I'm just praying it's not.  He also mentioned if he goes in there and my tube is just so severely scarred he'll have to remove it because it will be harmful to IVF.  It's very emotional being in the dark.  Who knows what he'll find?  Again with the not being able to plan things.  I have no control of what going on with my tubes but I am praying that God doesn't put us through anymore tests.  I pray that this is finally our time and he gives us our little baby that we've been longing for. 

On a brighter note, my MIL (mother in law) got me this awesome Wilton cake decorating kit and paid for my cake decorating course for Christmas.  I just started last Friday and I'm going again tonight.  I will post pictures of my cake.  Last week we just decorated cookies and it wasn't anything to 'oooo and aaaaahhh' over so no pictures we're taken.  But I'm hoping my cake tonight will be a success and we can 'Oooo and aaaaahh" over it! :) Happy Friday!!